Welcome to my blog!!! This will be a blog about things unsaid, the fabulous actions that I always want to do but too shy, the feelings that I have but never dared to articulate. This blog will be a sad one about the not-happenings. So if you are of a faint-hearted soul, better go somewhere else now.
Anyway introduction is done so lets get started.
Humans tend to always want things they cant have - whether its neighbour's car, classmate's lunch, friend's job.. someone else whose heart is definitely not yours.
Isnt it obvious at times that he is not interested in you? Isnt it clear at times that he is attracted to your close friend instead - the ladylike one, the softer, the weaker one, the pretty one, the popular one. Then why are you still holding on to various things - stalking him on fb, wishing he will look your way one day in the club, or the class.. he may, and you may think you are on cloud nine and your dreams are coming true, but it all happens just because he needs to look your way to find his friend.
and, despite many turn-aways, you are still saying: "probably he is just tired today." tired is the easiest, fastest way to end a potential conversation with someone you dont want to talk to.
Is it because you have not met someone so awesome for sometime? that you have not find someone so gentle, caring, physically attractive, smart - that you just simply cannot let go until probably he tell you directly in your face he is not interested. Then only you will regret your actions and curse that day in your life forever.
But sometimes, after all these words said by the brain, the heart still yearn: lets try again. lets be optimistic. arent we all taught to be optimistic all the time? being positive is good isnt it?
and yes, I find it so hard to stop especially when I saw his face again.
Sometimes, you just want what you cant have, dont you?
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